“The storms in my life have become workshops where I can practice my faith in God’s sovereignty.” Jill Briscoe
Yesterday was treatment #4 — 1/3 of the way done! Some days are going by so slowly, but then I think about how this entire journey really began around Mother’s Day and everything that has transpired since then, and then it seems like the days are flying. I guess it might depend on who you ask…Bryan may say the days are slower as his days don’t all look the same as they did before this all happened. I, however, see that most of my days remain the same, maybe with some additional duties, which I suppose is why I think the days are going by more quickly. All that to say, Bryan has 1/3 of his chemo treatments done! We are excited about that!
Bryan will have a PET scan next week and we will finally be able to see how his body his reacting to the chemo. It will be nice to “see” what is going on inside his body. We won’t find out anything about the results until his next treatment, but I will make sure you to keep you all in the loop. Bryan’s 3rd treatment left him feeling more nauseous and “off” than the first two, and the symptoms followed him for a few more days directly after than they had in the prior two treatments. So far, the fourth treatment went better itself, and we are praying the side effects are less and more manageable this time around. Other than fatigue and occasional nausea, I think Bryan seems to be doing really well physically. We are grateful for that. The mental part of all of this, continues to be a struggle, but as we are getting into somewhat of a routine, it seems like everything is really seeming like a normal part of our life — not a fun, part, but a part, no less.
A dear, sweet friend of mine, texted me this Bible verse yesterday morning before Bryan had his treatment, and it just really spoke to my heart and how I was feeling at the moment:
“Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness. I say to myself, “The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him.” Lamentations 3:21-25
We are not consumed. He never fails. So often during these last weeks, I have felt overwhelmed and really consumed by fear, doubt and just the unknown. But we have a God whose Love is GREATER than anything we are going through. We have hope and He truly makes each morning new. Every morning, of every single day, we know that there is a God who has an unfathomable amount of grace awaiting us.
Passion’s, “The Lord our God” is now a family favorite song these days as I have been playing it nonstop in the car lately.
In the silence, in the waiting
Still we can know You are good
All Your plans are for Your glory
Yes, we can know You are good
I think I speak for the majority of people when I say this but it is SO hard when God gives you that silence, or you feel like you are just waiting for answers. As an obsessive planner, this is especially hard for me, and I am willing to admit that. But, both Bryan and I believe that His plans, whether confusing or not, really are all for His glory. However this journey continues to unravel, we can know that He is good. He is here. And He has a plan.
I know this post isn’t really much of an update, but I wanted to make sure to keep you prayer warriors updated and let you know that Bryan is continuing to fight this with strength and a smile. We would still appreciate any and all prayers! Specifically, pray that Bryan would continue to be healthy, as his neutrophil count remains low. Please pray that he would feel well, and that symptoms would be minimal. Pray that he would have strength and energy to keep working and to keep living life as normal as possible! I would appreciate prayers for energy, understanding, peace and strength as well. While we know we have a Mighty God on our side, it is easy to forget that in the midst of stress and uncertainty. Your prayers, love, and support are amazing! Thank you for your texts, calls and all the ways that you are helping! Thank you for being a part of this journey with us.
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